Snapshot: Raleigh, North Carolina

I love weddings. It's a day where you get to witness so much love and emotion. We traveled to the tar heel state to see our friends marry in a beautiful ceremony on a perfect afternoon in September.
As I watched Alex dance with the flower girl (yes, I sort of made him) I fast forwarded 20ish years, maybe to his wedding, and wondered if I would remember this moment where my heart was overflowing with love for this perfect, little boy. I could have cried (several times) tears of pure happiness for the day.

This is a big deal.
It takes me a really long time to establish relationships. I am quiet and shy and super awkward and will tell you everything about me out of nervousness, without really telling you anything important. The people who know me best will tell you they've known me at least a decade and probably didn't even know I wanted to be their friend so bad the first 50 times we were together. It takes me a long time to figure things out and be confident because I'm slow like that.

Alex was no exception. I spent countless nights thinking about how guilty I felt that I could not love this child the way I thought I should be. I loved him like, keep him alive and care for him, but I was waiting for the true love...the love you can physically feel in your heart...the unguarded love.

It seemed like forever, but with a lot of hard work and dedication on both our parts, I know I've arrived. He's the most amazing, adorable, incredible, funny, thoughtful child that I could have never made myself.

I'm head over heels in love and it's as wonderful as I imagined it would be.